Talks aboutrelationship, i'll put on hold... for a long time...
My mind really got to stop thinking about being with her for awhile. Well, not that i've abandon her as a friend, but it's really difficult to let go of her.
I guess she must have already forgotten the happier times we had when we're out together...In still memories that i'll still keep in my heart and will never forget. Will she do the same?
After all the pretense, she still doesn't get it. I guess. It's hard when you sacrificed so much and you don't see results from the person you hoped would see.

We talk about the old Robin... where is he? He's still here to be honest. All those anger, sorrow, depression, thoughts of dying... are mere reflections of who she was... that i wanted Eliz to be in the shoes of others who knows her as a friend... That Eliz, always so negative at times... It hurts to see her like that sometimes... Being a mirror of her was tough... I had to endure the pain of losing her feelings for me... And she did. Now, it's hard to earn it back... EVEN THOUGH, the Robin she first knew is actually still here...
I miss her all along. There's like a gap in my heart now. She used to filled that up, and now, the closeness we had is gone...

Suddenly, i just wish to bring back that 'Robin' that was completely insanse... Angry, super depressing... Maybe i should.
*ouch, my left ear hurts and it's killing me... there's this blockage... :( *