As I slowly read her blog, it was something that made my heart aches even more... It seems everyone misses the strong and powerful Eliz when she had God with her...
Well, God has never departed her... I'm sure she knows that.
:)
What has become of me was more of pretense... To be a reflection of her character. But I'm glad, she's back. Sorry Eliz! Like i said, the OSCAR performance that i pulled for months. :)
Move on yea?
You sow attitude, you reap attitude. That was what she mentioned and well, did you realised that everything happened in one day? Your blog post, and the unveiling of my pretense. =)

Eliz eliz, remember this verse:

Isaiah 40:29-31
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint."

Each time i read a powerful verse, it doesn't always apply to me, but i'm always reminded about you when you're living your life with alot of doubts...
And as Christian, it's not to prove to the world how holy you are or how much you know about the Word... Some may know and memorise every single word in the Bible, and they expect others to be the same to deserve the right to be called a Christian. Right? Wrong.
Christianity, as we all know is a relationship with God. Not just any kind, but rather, having a close intimacy with God. It's good to have a spiritual leader to guide you through your darkest hours, and I'm really glad that Bee Leng is there for you...

So say goodbye to talks about death, suicides, condemnation... Live is just more than that and I know that as I watch you grow stronger each day, you're more than capable of overcoming these words that are poison from Satan.
The moment you don't feel good about things, don't keep it to yourself... Seek healthy counsel. People will be willing to lend you a helping hand and pray for you.

To me, whether you are a leader or not, it's no big diff. No, i'm not degrading you, but rather, i treat everyone equal. So do not look down on yourself if you feel like you're a weak Christian or even lousier than your other members... In a CG, comparisons only fuses problems and jealousy will arise among the group... A CG is no place for competition to who will impresses the leader more... God sees your inner heart and your faith in Him. Cos to him, everyone is EQUAL in His eyes.

I'll keep you in my prayers every single day... Say hello to the old Robin... :)