How bothersome it is...
The problems at home. People say it's easy to just go home and pretend nothing happened. But ry to be in my shoes... What's the consequence of me going home after my dad's and aunty helen's quarrel? I will recieve endless verbal abuse... Vulgarities flying all over...
I stayed at my friend's place. Ryan's.
Ryan, if you're reading this, thanks. God have sent a true angel in disguise to guide me through my toughest moments... Haha! I don't seem affected about the issue back at home in camp right? I am.
So why am i? My mind keeps on flashing at that moment when i saw Aunty Helen pushed my dad till he fell... I felt totally helpless but could only pick my dad up as i watch Aunty Helen throw her tantrums. When i shared this with Eliz yesterday, i felt that i couldn't hold back my tears... Not only to her, but to others...
I can't go home. Just yet. Am i running away? I don't know.
I seek God. For an answer.

On the other hand, it was kinda clear that i really miss talking to Eliz. It's just one day that she's away in Malaysia... But it's just so strong. Sigh. I pray for God's protection over her. I pray.