I couldn't sleep well last night, as much as i wanted to.

I've been in such a depressed mood that i don't think i can be happy like I was before. The feeling still hurts, when she threw away something that meant alot, not just because it takes up her space.

I never knew of her being this way. I wish the old Eliz would come back, for once... Cos she used to be understanding, never fails to be there as a friend.. There was so much love in those eyes when i look at them... And the sweet voice that makes me wanna talk to her everyday. Now, everything's changed.

Everyday, I'll be waiting. For her to unblock me, so that we could settle it with a mutual understanding. But will that ever happen? Will she re-open her heart where she have already completely shut me out for her own reasons?

I have a character. That when I'm wrong, or hurt the other party, i try to make amends for it. No matter how difficult it is, I still have to go through hell... It's not the nicest feeling, to turned away and be rejected. For this case, I need her to understand.

Eliz, look at it this way that you and I, we don't deserve all these that we're doing to each other. Will i ever get my chance to hear from you, Eliz? I want you to know that i never meant to hurt you any way, neither do i want to believe you're trying to hurt me deliberately. I don't think God wants to see us like that. It's takes alot to forgive, it's takes forever to forget. But at the end of the day, it's the grudges that you and I hold that put all stops to any progression of reconciling. What does it take for that to happen?
To lay down one's pride. Pride against pride will never get anywhere. It doesn't make anyone of us a winner... For this, I'm willing to lay down my pride. Cos this friendship means alot to me. To be more precise, you mean alot to me.

I'm sorry for all this that happened...