I still am remorseful... Regretful.
What's the point of saying huh?

I lost the will to do anything, everything.
I can't go on being that happy person. Yeah, maybe you did see me happy once in a while... It's just a mask behind a broken hearted person.

Maybe I'll leave church for good. I don't seem wanted around. Everyone is against me. Everyone thinks i have bad intentions even before i could give myself a chance to explain...

I admit, i was vulgar lately. I lost control of my own tongue and start raging with words that are not just harsh but hurtful on her. I began hating her so much, never did i thought it would ever happened.

I don't know what to do now... She walked out of my life just like that... Just like that... I hate this, and i hate life even more now.