My... the dreadful thought of having to spend Christmas, alone.

I'm so looking forward to the event... But who can i spend it with?
The one person i wish to spend with, she probably will spend it with her friends. Family? It's different ever since i moved out of my mum's place. My mother likes organising Christmas party at home.. And instead of enjoying myself there, she uses me to wash dishes...
And yeah... Never enjoyed myself...

I wanted it to be different every year... But it just looks the same to me... And it's like, I don't remember it... I forgot how i spent it last year... And the year before... and the year before that year... and so on...

All i want for christmas, is something memorable....