It was such a horrible weekend...
I really don't know what's going on... But what i know is that, i don't see any meaning in life now.

Lots of guilt, regrets that I'm still trying to counter... But it will surely live a mark in my life.
New faces comes in, now i taste competition. I no longer can be that person that she would look up to when troubled. I know I'll still be by her side after what we've gone through for the past months, almost a year.

I feel depressed.
I doubt she'll read my blog...

I want to disappear from everyone. I don't feel needed at all...