My life has just stop spinning...
There's no more the moment i felt she's not here anymore...
Slept at 3am and couldn't had proper rest... I kept waking up with alot of fear... And her words just echo in my mind. I woke up at 5:30am, saw her reply to my message, "Oh" and went back to sleep. Woke up at 7am... my msn was still on... and she message, "Hey," But never continued after that.
Then she messaged me "Still angry at me". The moment i read that, i start to have this fear... Thoughts ran through my head... How would she reply if i told her I wasn't. Which in fact, i wasn't angry with her...Never was I... For i know the root of the problem. It took my like 2 hours later to reply her cos my thoughts were running in circles... I fear she would continue to reply sarcastically in whatever way i respond. But i did my best and i replied this:

"Eliz, I was never angry at you. Why would I be when I'm the root of the problem. Just broken and really felt completely destroyed. I hesitated about how to reply you. Cos there's this fear of how you would respond. I've become really scared. Tears will start to flow..."

I'm just too scared that i can't stop the tears flowing from my eyes... I really pray that God would speak to her...