We live in a world so cruel. But God is great.
Today, it wasn't a bad day, neither was it a good day. I found out alot of things about what people are saying behind my back about me and Eliz. Yes, it is over. We were never together in the first place. Strongly attach? Yes.
We regretted missing service 2 weeks ago, and we repented. But each time, we are reminded about it when others speak of it. I decided to forget about that day. For if i remember, aren't i letting my past drag me down again? Or her?
I look for a better future. And i don't see how it will help by me and eliz not contact ingeach other at all? It will make things even worse! I mean, I'm happy with the way we are. She is. Still in a close friendship, that can never be seperated. It's easy for one to advice the other to AVOID without giving a thought about how the other person on the end will feel.
People are not convince that if we remains close as friends, we can have a stable friendship. They think otherwise. To avoid each other, so that we will have a better friendship. Hello? Wake up!
I wanted to have a normal casual dinner with her. Is it so difficult? Yes. For the fear of what others say. But i stood firm telling myself that, "Whatever others say, or how much suspicions arouse in them, only God knows what's going on. Therefore, why should we feel guilty?

I wish to get back on track. And treat her like a normal friend. Not just friend of words. Everyone can say they keep a stable friendship with this person or that person. But is any actions being done to prove what you mean?

Look here, I need my freedom with Eliz. Cos we're just friends. Nothing more than that. I miss her, i still like her. But, we came to an agreement that I willnot misunderstand or neither of us will be mislead. It may be difficult to convince others, but i know that I'm true to my words this time round.