That friendship seems over...

When i think about it, it brought back many memories, both painful and joyous.
In life, no one is perfect, and everyone makes mistakes. Sometimes we overlooked it, we're too blind to even realise it, until when it happens. Today, that day happened for me.

To lose her as a friend was the last thing that i ever hoped for when i won her over as a friend. I have no one to blame but myself for being so blunt, so dumb, stupid and probably, blind. For the chances given to me, i took it for granted and went back to the same old habits... Now it's just too late. It's a wake up call for me, at the same time, it's a loss.

No friend can meet every single needs, but be there for that person. I know i did what i could, but those were the past. The past doesn't matter at all... What happened, happened, and there's not turning back.
I'm truly sorry that I've overlooked the situations, and the chances until it's too late. Too late...

This loss is so painful for me that i wonder how I'm able to cope with life... Moving on will be difficult, but i want to believe i can.

God, He sees my apologies, He sees my pleas, and He knows that I'm broken.
I just want to escape from this world, but i guess, there's more in store for me from Him.