I typed a blog entry about having a memorable Christmas this year... And i thank God that i had one. :) And it began in the early hours.
I 'gave away' my ipod nano which is only 2 months old. It got stolen from my pocket when i don't know what the hell am i doing sleeping on a bench just near my house.

Christmas eve was bad enough, Christmas was even worse...

Was supposed to hang out with Fadhli and Sebastian... well, we did. We ended up at the LAN Shop, but after 2 hours, they wanted to walk around, I wanted to stay as i was midway through a conversation with her. And i felt that things weren't exactly resolved (it never did in the end), and so, i told them to walk around and find me later...
Unluckily, my phone batt died... I stayed till 3am at the LAN shop, hoping they'll come back... they didn't. So i'm left outside, stuck outside alone... and ended up walking home from Paradiz Centre.

I reached my house area around 5:30am. And i chose to stay outside for awhile. And ended up falling asleep. How clever. My mood was really low, and when i woke up, the next thing i realised, some bugger plucked out my ipod in my left pockets from my earphones... I felt useless at that point of time... Dumb...

I msged Eliz to tell her that, and she probably did her best to calm me down, but apparently she failed to do so. She said she can't be there for me. When she said that, i just couldn't remember or give a shit why i cared for her to begin with.
I know and she knows that I was there for her even though it was coupled with a number of mistakes... But it's the thought that counts. Still, she believes the past is the past... She begin to have this mentality about defining the line will do us good... Eliz, it wouldn't. Reason is because, everything will benefit you... Even in times like this when i needed someone, no one is. She wouldn't even consider but give a straight 'no' just because of that line she drawn... Not willing to drop it for once. Once.
People will say, God is. Don't tell me God is when physically His people aren't.