She's gonna play on stage soon. A performance. A huge one. And i wish i could be there to support her. I hope she will see my undying support.
Thoughts of death ran through my mind again. Because i lost that trust. Completely. It just breaks my heart so easily. And now, it's broken. I wish for things to get back again. We used to be so close, now we're drifting apart.
Does she still care for me despite whatever that happen? I don't know... I wrote this feeling anguished, sorrowful, angry with myself, sorry for her... All those words that sums up to brokeness...


WHEN ALL IS OVER...

Blessed with one i could love.
Things took a turn and for granted.
And I watch myself drown in a vale of tears
Swallowing the bitterness.

The first kiss was different from the last
As I watch her shed her tears

Finding the scarlet blood of our hearts bleed
The end is near for this i fear
Mistakes after mistakes, i was brought down by sin
Forgiveness is what I ache for

I fall to my knees
Begging please.
For hope is nothing but has evaporated
To droplets from a bleeding heart.

We used to be so happy.
We used to be clouded with love
But all these faded away.
And now, I'm pleading you to stay.

Is this the moment of execution
Crushing blow to my heart
I'm all but gone
The voice of failure echoes through ears
As I slowly watch myself disappear.

Elizabeth
I can't lose you for this I fear
I failed a numerous times
I'm gasping my last few breath
As i sink deeper till I face death.